[ not physically? he frowns a little and thinks over the last couple of days, tries to piece together what he might mean by that. it's true he hadn't entirely been present since his meeting with chul, but he had tried to make more time for jaejin. after all, it's not as if he has anything else to do besides loiter around his apartment and wait to be summoned—like some on-call whore. he could communicate better, he knows, and he's been making an effort now. but perhaps it's too late now that jaejin's made up his mind about something vie cannot even fathom.

the weight of jaejin's hand atop his only brings so much comfort now. ]

I don't understand. [ his expression dips, and when he looks up, he keeps his gaze directed at jaejin. ] I know I haven't been as focused as usual the last couple of days, but I don't know what you mean. You don't owe me anything, Jaejin. I just – [ vie's lips thin. ] I'm not sure what you want me to do when it feels like we're living two different lives in the same room.