[ it doesn't feel right. he should be the one begging, not jaejin. he doesn't want jaejin to look at him either, still finding it incredibly difficult to get a grasp on his feelings as such simple words make his eyes burn even more.
together should mean so much more than this. it should mean them leaving – maybe they still could, if vie is brave enough to think of it – and it should mean them never looking back at all of this. instead, they've been fumbling and grasping at each other for much too long. how much longer until one of them finally decides that it's enough? how much longer until one of them really does leave? vie can taste that fear even as he clings to jaejin's hand, squeezing at it like it's the only lifeline he has now. ]
I don't want to hurt you, [ he whispers, and it's worse somehow, saying it out loud. ] But I keep doing it. How could you want that after what I've done to you?
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together should mean so much more than this. it should mean them leaving – maybe they still could, if vie is brave enough to think of it – and it should mean them never looking back at all of this. instead, they've been fumbling and grasping at each other for much too long. how much longer until one of them finally decides that it's enough? how much longer until one of them really does leave? vie can taste that fear even as he clings to jaejin's hand, squeezing at it like it's the only lifeline he has now. ]
I don't want to hurt you, [ he whispers, and it's worse somehow, saying it out loud. ] But I keep doing it. How could you want that after what I've done to you?