[ it's a tender question, sliding his thumb along jaejin's jawline before dropping his hand away. his fingers are still in his, and he doesn't let him go, only turning his head slightly to glance at the curtains of the balcony doors across the room before looking at him again. ]
Whatever you ask for shouldn't benefit me. They are your needs, not mine. I'm not going to be mad or upset with you because of that. [ vie isn't even sure jaejin would think that, but he has to say it. ] I want you to be honest. That's the only way things might ever return to being how they used to be between us.
[ because he misses that too—desperately. vie doesn't know how to articulate that well, only wishes to show it, and it's why he folds his other hand over jaejin's and gives it a reassuring squeeze. or hopes that it feels that way. they've never been so brutally open with one another before, and it's brought more discomfort and pain than it should. and besides, they can't operate the way they used to; too much has happened for it to ever be entirely the same, but vie hopes it will get better. he has to believe it will. ]
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[ it's a tender question, sliding his thumb along jaejin's jawline before dropping his hand away. his fingers are still in his, and he doesn't let him go, only turning his head slightly to glance at the curtains of the balcony doors across the room before looking at him again. ]
Whatever you ask for shouldn't benefit me. They are your needs, not mine. I'm not going to be mad or upset with you because of that. [ vie isn't even sure jaejin would think that, but he has to say it. ] I want you to be honest. That's the only way things might ever return to being how they used to be between us.
[ because he misses that too—desperately. vie doesn't know how to articulate that well, only wishes to show it, and it's why he folds his other hand over jaejin's and gives it a reassuring squeeze. or hopes that it feels that way. they've never been so brutally open with one another before, and it's brought more discomfort and pain than it should. and besides, they can't operate the way they used to; too much has happened for it to ever be entirely the same, but vie hopes it will get better. he has to believe it will. ]