[ there's visible hesitation on jaejin's part. he isn't sure how to say what he's already said, not when he's upset vie with it before. he stays quiet, watching their hands and letting his fingers curl against vie's in return. it feels like all of him aches for when things seemed simpler, when they could smile and share sweeter moments together, enjoy each other. he doesn't want to think of when they'd discussed their honeymoon, of all things. if he lets himself get caught up in it, he won't be prepared when it happens.
he won't anyway, of course. vie is the only thing, person or otherwise, he's let himself want and believe he can have in over a decade. ]
Not physically, Vie. [ even with his distinct lack of experience in relationships, he knows that checking out mentally is worse than the act of walking out of a door. he clears his throat and shifts his weight from one foot to the other. ] But I want to do this for you first.
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he won't anyway, of course. vie is the only thing, person or otherwise, he's let himself want and believe he can have in over a decade. ]
Not physically, Vie. [ even with his distinct lack of experience in relationships, he knows that checking out mentally is worse than the act of walking out of a door. he clears his throat and shifts his weight from one foot to the other. ] But I want to do this for you first.