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𝚟𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚎. ([personal profile] wheedles) wrote 2021-08-21 05:29 pm (UTC)

[ something cracks inside him.

perhaps it's the softened lilt of jaejin's voice. maybe it's the words sitting between them and picking him apart little by little. vie can't place it, and he doesn't have the energy to, not when anger and disbelief are still far too tangible to him. he should say yes and agree with him, hope to salvage the parts of their relationship that are still intact. he should, but he can't because jaejin doesn't see things the way vie sees them. he really doesn't understand. ]


It's not my dream! [ and this time, he does snap at him. he can't breathe. ] No part of it was anything I wanted, Jaejin. None of it. I became complacent because I knew that as long as I was married, it might do something to soften the blow. You're the one I want you. I still want you. You're my dream. [ he can taste the tears now. he's so tired. ] But I can't let someone else die because of me, either.

I didn't want to live with that and be with you. It would have ruined whatever happiness we would have had, and you deserve more than that from me.

[ his guilt is an incredibly strong thing, perhaps stronger than even vie had known, and that, he thinks, is why he'd agreed to stay more than anything else. ]

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